I hate it.. The two of you.
I hate how you're so close.
I hate it that you two share so much experiences
So much.
That I dont.
I hate it how you both can laugh about that camp, that night, that funny story and I can only look on sullenly.
I hate how you two dont really get me anymore.
I hate how I could have shared a lot more of that if only I had gotten a higher GPA.
Last year.
Since when does GPA start screwing your life?
Since now.
So somehow though its wrong and stupid, I am quietly rejoicing in the fact that you wont be here for the next few weeks.
Well. That week.
I know i should be disappointed you won't be there.
But were you when I wasnt?
Not on your mind was I?
Then again, he probably never thought of me either.
What the hell am I fighting for.
Why the hell am I fighting for the two of you.
You're both already gone. You have each other.
You don't need me.
But...
I still need you guys.
Its pathetic, I just end up twisting in the wind. Lost. Weak. Falling.
Nothing.
I'm a selfish little bugger, hurtful, resentful, bitter, arrogant, and I never know what to say.
Maybe I'm just clumsy, silly, slow and a little blur.
But I'm trying to change.
And sometimes I just need a little something to light the way.
If not I'll be stuck here.
Forever.
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Confession. - Tuesday, November 2, 2010 @ 5:40 PM
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Confession. - Tuesday, November 2, 2010 @ 5:40 PM
I hate it.. The two of you.
I hate how you're so close. I hate it that you two share so much experiences So much. That I dont. I hate it how you both can laugh about that camp, that night, that funny story and I can only look on sullenly. I hate how you two dont really get me anymore. I hate how I could have shared a lot more of that if only I had gotten a higher GPA. Last year. Since when does GPA start screwing your life? Since now. So somehow though its wrong and stupid, I am quietly rejoicing in the fact that you wont be here for the next few weeks. Well. That week. I know i should be disappointed you won't be there. But were you when I wasnt? Not on your mind was I? Then again, he probably never thought of me either. What the hell am I fighting for. Why the hell am I fighting for the two of you. You're both already gone. You have each other. You don't need me. But... I still need you guys. Its pathetic, I just end up twisting in the wind. Lost. Weak. Falling. Nothing. I'm a selfish little bugger, hurtful, resentful, bitter, arrogant, and I never know what to say. Maybe I'm just clumsy, silly, slow and a little blur. But I'm trying to change. And sometimes I just need a little something to light the way. If not I'll be stuck here. Forever. |
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