There's so much within me that I can't get at.
That my mind hides from me.
Its not exactly like what they say, no recollection of those traumatic events.
They aren't traumatic like what they say in the reports.
At least I think.
I still know certain things happened.
I still know its not like I got raped or what. Its not that severe.
At the same time, my mind still doesn't let me remember.
I can remember big details, but not the small things.
But its the small things that hurt me. The small things that I cannot dig up.
I can't forgive.
And when I can't forgive, I can't forget.
How can I move on?
Sigh.
Labels: confused, feelings, myself, nightmares, sanity
