I'm sorry.
There's need, and then there's me.
Need makes me ballistic. It makes me feel horrible, terrible and makes me feel like destroying everything around me and performing drastic intervention.
Me knows that's wrong. But me, was withered worn out and too tired to think clearly.
But me misses you too.
The difference is that me can sincerely wish you the best, and stay out of your life.
Because it's what's best.
Not for me maybe.
But it's for the best.