I'm just spent now.
Tired. Tortured.
I've said this too many times but I just can't take it anymore. All their shit. Well guess what, he said I could leave if I found anyone willing to take me in.
Frankly I don't give a shit, if he thinks thats supposed to make me consider how awesome he is to the world and that there is nobody out there, then fine. I've considered enough. I want out.
He says what he isn't going to pay for my university education. Fine. Suits me anyway. I don't want one. I can be poor all my damned life but at least I'll be happy.
I'll take almost anything.
I want a normal life, not one swamped by his crap. Her crap. Its all the same. Unending swalls of crap.
I just want some NORMALITY.
Get me out of here.
Anyone of you, if you can. I'm begging you. I can't live here anymore.
Please save me, I'm running out of hope, I don't know how much longer I can hold on God..
Wake me from this nightmare, before I'm lost to it.
Because sometimes I just figure I might as well take the only way out.
Take that one way trip.
And leave all of this behind.
Then I catch myself again, because its wrong, but everyday I seem to care less and less.
And of course it scares me. It scares me as much as it might scare you. But I can't do anything about it.
Not that I know. I need to do something before my resolve slips.
God help me.
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When Darkness Turns To Light - Tuesday, February 1, 2011 @ 6:11 PM
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When Darkness Turns To Light - Tuesday, February 1, 2011 @ 6:11 PM
I'm just spent now.
Tired. Tortured. I've said this too many times but I just can't take it anymore. All their shit. Well guess what, he said I could leave if I found anyone willing to take me in. Frankly I don't give a shit, if he thinks thats supposed to make me consider how awesome he is to the world and that there is nobody out there, then fine. I've considered enough. I want out. He says what he isn't going to pay for my university education. Fine. Suits me anyway. I don't want one. I can be poor all my damned life but at least I'll be happy. I'll take almost anything. I want a normal life, not one swamped by his crap. Her crap. Its all the same. Unending swalls of crap. I just want some NORMALITY. Get me out of here. Anyone of you, if you can. I'm begging you. I can't live here anymore. Please save me, I'm running out of hope, I don't know how much longer I can hold on God.. Wake me from this nightmare, before I'm lost to it. Because sometimes I just figure I might as well take the only way out. Take that one way trip. And leave all of this behind. Then I catch myself again, because its wrong, but everyday I seem to care less and less. And of course it scares me. It scares me as much as it might scare you. But I can't do anything about it. Not that I know. I need to do something before my resolve slips. God help me. |
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