Its not just homework now, but other things, things that I really care about.

Its completely ridiculous. I remember there was one week that I texted her. Then I planned to text her next week. But that day came and passed, and I forgot. In the end, I didn't text her again.

Useless piece of crap.

You see for some people there is this time of the week where you can sms them. If you miss it, you have to wait one more week. And if you forget the week after that. Then too bad. Then the week after that it can get too awkward. And thats exactly what happened.

Like how I forgot his birthday, then only remembered 2 days later but didn't sms him cause it was TOO AWKWARD.

I was planning to tell him in person anyway. I'm not that socially retarded. But he just didn't come....

One day I'm going to lose a friend because of this.

If I haven't already have.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.