A game being harder or more unfair than I expected.

It makes me so angry I shout and scream.

It puts me in a bad mood.

I wonder if I have a swirling cesspit of malice and hatred within me. Cause that's what it seems like....

It totally spoils puzzle games for me. Or any games that involve a certain degree of luck.

I don't know.

It can seem like the games work against logic , that certain things happen in a weird unfair way for no particular reason. Just maybe bad luck. Except its sustained bad luck.

Then I get angry.

Very angry.

But I shouldn't.

Its not like this when I play games with other people.

But still...

It's not healthy.

Something's not right with me.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.