Need to take a step back.

Instead of just diving forth with reckless abandon.

I've found myself being lost in a game over the past few days.

It says something about me if I'm so willing to thrust myself into virtual reality and not care about my actual life.

Scary thought.

Suddenly the game has lost a lot of its appeal to me. But then I know that if I start playing again I'll get stuck for a few hours.

Sigh.

That's the other truth about me and computer (and console) games I suppose, its not just the fact that I never got to play enough when I was a kid.

I prefer it to real life sometimes.

Which is also why I stay away from RPGs.

My tendency to get addicted is too high.

Still my soul be still.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.