I remember when I gave up on the other CCAs I wanted to join and whirled back into RP Uday said to me, "welcome home"
And it felt like it.
But it just isn't working out.
It's troubling. I am dreading CCA. I considered skipping it today and I'm not the only one.
Which is troubling.
And bothersome. Because it's such a small batch. Yet everything is so fragmented. And it's frustrating. Extremely frustrating because my life in JC is already restricted mainly to my class mates. Which is now a class of 17 after Shanice left.
It's not the tight knit community that I expected it to be, so when RP is just some crazy people shambling about trying to be nice to each other it's just sad.
CCA is another way to get a sense of family in this big lonesome school and I'm not getting it.
JC may be one hell of a liberation, but it sure as fucking hell is lonely.
Pffft. Someone skydive into my life already.
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Homecoming Abort - Wednesday, July 4, 2012 @ 6:53 PM
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Homecoming Abort - Wednesday, July 4, 2012 @ 6:53 PM
I remember when I gave up on the other CCAs I wanted to join and whirled back into RP Uday said to me, "welcome home"
And it felt like it. But it just isn't working out. It's troubling. I am dreading CCA. I considered skipping it today and I'm not the only one. Which is troubling. And bothersome. Because it's such a small batch. Yet everything is so fragmented. And it's frustrating. Extremely frustrating because my life in JC is already restricted mainly to my class mates. Which is now a class of 17 after Shanice left. It's not the tight knit community that I expected it to be, so when RP is just some crazy people shambling about trying to be nice to each other it's just sad. CCA is another way to get a sense of family in this big lonesome school and I'm not getting it. JC may be one hell of a liberation, but it sure as fucking hell is lonely. Pffft. Someone skydive into my life already. |
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