Strangely enough I really haven't been able to name him until recently. but he's always been there, and with me.
He probably was me once upon a time. And I've kept him. Perhaps he was me when I was 11-12, just that I was more irritating and a lot less adorable.
Meet Yellow.
He's come to life and become and even bigger part of me recently because of SYF. I play a character which is essentially him. I've been playing part of myself on stage for a few months now. Yes its driving me nuts, but hey, everyone's gotta take sacrifices.
Yellow as a character is a character that was described as the emotion hope and I knew that I had him deep down inside me. I just needed to bring him out. He's quite a kid. Really, I've grown but he hasn't. He's gullible, and genuinely wants to believe people all the time and really like me he can't understand why people have to be dishonest unless its absolutely necessary. He gets hurt easily, and takes extra care when dealing with people lest he hurt them, when he does, he gets very depressed.
He tries to be happy all the time to make everyone else happy with his presence. He's also happy a lot, but not all the time. Though he comes off as a super high crackhead. He's usually unhappy with himself. And has a lot of things he would like to change about himself.
Another word to describe this guy is excessive. He talks too much and a little too much, his eternal sunniness is something really adorable, but sometimes if you're having a bad day, he's just an irritating prick. He will continue to grate into your nerves til they're well past breaking point. And you'll feel like holding him by the shoulders and shouting at him and telling him to wake up into the real world. But you can't, cause people will hate you for it. And that makes you hate him.
He's a dreamer, and an optimist for life. He'll keep waiting and waiting and waiting for his hopes to come true. I've grown up from him mostly. Especially in this respect but I still hear his voice in my head from time to time.
I've stopped dreaming so much and so wide. I've stopped waiting for them to come true. Thats only cause I've realized that if you want them to, you have to choose one, and make your dream come true.
Make it happen.
