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Zzt, that smile she gave me, I could have just kept looking at it forever. However I graciously opted to look away and only slightly acknowledge her, lest my mouth opened and I my eyes take on a glazed look.

Not very cool an open mouth is, especially when combined with a glassy stare.

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Alas I am but a slave.

Helplessly whirling around, tossed by the vicissitudes of fate. Am I truly the captain of my fate and the master of my soul? Nonsense, but neither do I have no ability to forge my path. Yes, the current is strong, but I can swim yet.

I'll show you. I'll swim.

And if I drown, may you bury me with a rose on my chest.

Why?

Because I say so.

Uh.

No thats just creepy.

Forget the rose.

Just make sure I'm wearing something decent.

Yeahhh....

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.