Sometimes life just gets you down.

And you have no clue what to do.

Or what you're even doing anymore.

But then I catch her out of the corner of my eye.

Tugging at her shirt, smiling, not at me of course, laughing, and then suddenly the sunshine comes back into my life.

She is my sunshine now.

But she doesn't know.

I musn't let her know.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.