I wish I could find the happiness again.

I'm not sad.

Just tired.

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Ooh I got a call today,

It promised me freedom

So I took it.

Freedom from one thing only unfortunately, its impossible to free from everything. At least now I'm freer than I was before. I've smiled on my own for the first time in forever.

That sounds so bloody emo, goodness Ian what have you become.

Just a little too introspective for your own liking, heh. And not really humourous. You know what, instead of being always serious or never serious I need to learn how to be serious funny. Not seriously funny cause that's just inherently retarded. But serious-funny.

Never too serious I suppose that's what I mean. Either that or at least not to make jokes in vain.

Fine a combination of the two.

Yer happy now you ballistic twat.

Yeahh.

Lol these two posts totally shouldn't be together but I'm like super lazy.

So deal with it.

=D

no I'm not going to end with that emoticon again.

It would speak of a poverty of imagination and a lack of originality.

Yeah!

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.