Belles, Stars and Boulevards

I said I would move on.

But I didn't

I'm an idiot like that.

Seeing all those faces up there and thinking that I could and should've been there too hit me so hard.

Why did I fall at that hurdle?

Why didn't I take that chance back in?

Why did I say that i would move on, be done with drama and open a new chapter in life.

And in the end find myself adrift.

Alone.

Without anything.

So I was wrong, people aren't the only key to happiness in my life.

fucking sad but true.

But they'll help me get through this.

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Music does too.

This song makes me so happy.

So kill me.

Labels: music

Hi, I'm Ian.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.

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