I was blitzed, blinkered and within half an hour I auditioned. 20 minutes later I got the role.

Shit I'm back.

I never thought I'd be doing this again.

Maybe this was where I was meant to be all along.

Strap yourself in for the ride of your life honey bun. Cause this ain't gonna be easy.

Oh goodness, the script is the longest I have ever seen.

It's okay. I can do this.

Cause I'm freaking awesome. Cause this time, self doubt reappeared and was resoundingly crushed and sent packing.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.