I guess it's time to say goodbye, and it does pain me to do so very much but I don't really have a choice anyway.

It really saddens me that things have come to this point, that we can't talk anymore, and really it's through no real fault of our own.

I'm not here to explain things, partly because you don't want to hear any and you won't believe me anyway. Instead, I just want to let you know I'll leave you be.

Really Jess, I guess you shouldn't have kept things from me. Things would've been so much easier. And I'm sorry for hurting you and bothering you, with my own wants and needs.

But honestly Jess, I've never lied to you. Not once. Which is why truly, if given the choice I would never have chosen to lose you as a friend. Or to hurt you that much.

I apologize for the last days in CAP. I honestly lost my mind and there wasn't any real reasons for it. So I'm sorry. But that wasn't me. I really hate that that's all you're going to remember me for.

I do know you've always tried to care now. I really do. Which is why it breaks my heart to know you don't know who I am. That you didn't believe in me like I believe in you.

And I do know what you think, and I do know who you think I am.

Which is why I'm not going to talk to you anymore Jess.

And I do hope one day that you'll miss me and read this letter. But yes. I'm done with you too.

Goodbye my love, may you find true happiness somewhere in life. Discern in your hurt, and don't let the wrong people in. Maybe if you need a shoulder to cry on, I might just compose myself for awhile. No guarantees though. But really. Don't go around hurting yourself, or hurting the people around you.

I really worry for you, and for all your pain and problems, but I know they're not mine to worry about anymore. I will miss you terribly.

And your secrets are safe with me.

Always.

-the boy who knew too little, but knew too much.