Forget my humour. I feel that, that i could use somebody, theres gotta be somebody like me out there, and if i could fall.....into the sky...do you think...........I never thought I'd need you there when I cried. But I cant let that happen again. I cant stand the pain. You dont know what its like. Do you? If you just realized what i just realized. Then youll see my heart in the saddest state its ever been. I need a little more luck than a little. This isnt working out.I gotta get outta here. I wonder, if i could just..take a risk, take a chance, make a change and break...but im afraid that.... I'll just doze off safe and soundly, but I'll miss........your voice....your eyes........the brightest of all...and maybe..its true.........I need you baby....dont be afraid please...

LOLZ WHAT IS THIS MESS

do you have nightmares? Stupid question everyone gets nightmares, whether they get dreams or not. I get recurring nightmares, although only when I have high fevers, and its always the same 3 or 4 nightmares that ive been getting since like 4. And its freaky, cause you know whats going to happen, but you cant do anything to change it. and its just as scary each time. I also cant describe or remember those nightmares, although whenever i have it again i know its the same one.

hmmmmmmm........ lemme give you a better picture of my dreams. I shall describe the most recent one that I can remember:

I am going somewhere, to an event I can only describe best as a church camp, but I'm on foot and there are many people around, its like a parade. We are walking on a road. To the hotel or whatever place. Erm. To the left of the road thingy there is a hill'like thingy. Er well, its like a wall...............OKAY its a triangular prism thingy but its not straight cause the path isnt. It happens to be covered in grass like a hill. One side is steep, while the other isnt. The steep side is facing us. On top of the wall there happens to be two blonde girls.......................You guys are gonna think im totally obsessed but one of them is Taylor Swift and the other is her friend who I somehow have the impression that her name is Abigail for a some screwed reason. The hill thingy is so high that they look like theyre only 3cm tall but for some reason I can converse with them. effortlessly, and also see their faces, facial expressions etc etc. Um........ I talk to them, and i cant remember the conversation, though i have the impression that im trying to flirt with them and Abigail is trying to flirt with me, Taylor Swift is just looking on, seemingly interested but not saying anything. I move on to the hotel and the event goes on. Oh yeah, I get the impression somehow that the whole place belongs to like Taylor Swifts parents, dont ask me why. Time speeds up and i find myself in some meeting within the church camp like event, within a small group. The group needs a representative to ask Taylor Swift for something, I dont know why. Im not the rep but i manipulate myself into being the rep after the meeting. Somehow. I send her some sort of message, and I get a handwritten note from her asking me to go meet her up on top of the hill thingy at 2.30 am that night. So i try to stay awake and wait for everybody else to sleep in the meantime. Time does NOT slow down. The anticipation is killing me and at around 10.00pm I fall asleep and wake up in real life.

Thats one of my dreams. Haha. Its bloody random and almost impossible to describe. So excuse me if i dont tell u guys anymore. Please......note that im not as obsessed about Taylor Swift as this blog and the dream seems to suggest. Oh shut up, I can hear you laughing

Anyways since someone asked...........

Church retreat was from 14th-17th of June, Twas in Malacca. It was supposed to be more spiritual I guess, hence the name CHURCH retreat.... but like a lot of people that wasnt really the main focus. Which I realize is bad. I did spend more time with God than I normally would have but err............haha it didnt take up as much of my time as it shouldve. It was mainly a time of bonding and fun with my cg. Youth group from church just in case any of you reading this dont know. We had fun playing er.......poker(well then again only me(cause i won most of the time heheh)), bang(I didnt like this, everyone kept killing me first), table tennis(although I cant play it for nuts). Watching the world cup for free without the influence of starhub and singtel. On a giant projector too. Of course the usual random stuff any group of teens(I hate that term but i cant find a replacement for it) do. We also went shopping- I hated it, Im a guy its normal.

So there you have it, thats essentially what we all did lolz. Of course, it was more fun that reading this post, so I dont really get the point. But someone asked..........

from resorts world sentosa :)

and so the "holidays" begin. or have begun.

Talking about homework is so depressing

grrrrrrr

RWS was kinda fine, though there isnt much to do really, Seriously there are only like 20 rides in that whole place, that includes shows, and kiddie rides. zzzt. I was bored, thrill seekers are not going to be amused by Universal Studios, at least until the battlestar galactica reopens. Its kinda hard to forget its there, esp since it towers over everything else in the entire place. My advice, unless you're the type of person who can just walk around a theme park and admire the beautiful construction and lovely atmosphere, don't go.