Haha my image.
Whee, back from school, well not really school but you get the point
I'm just going to sit back and relax today...
ahhhhh feels so good.
Dramafeste is tomorrow.
Sadly it will cause me to miss cg on saturday.
*gasps*
I just realized that after I'm done with this Imma gonna have to drag my class lit group through the lit parody.
Horrors.
I wrote the script!
But it needs heavy editing, since I didnt really write it in a very lucid state of mind. I was semi-high.I was using colloquial terms and singlish like hell. Also obsessive dotting.
Our dear director said that we could use it but would have to edit and take out : "all the crazy shit and dots".
Haha.

I just realized I missed the usual tuesday sitcoms, only to realise they didnt exist. Ah well, I miss them. Some of them at least. Ok fine a few of them. Er.. the last one I enjoyed was police and thief. Haha yes it's a little slapstick but if you manage to push out the horrifying puke-inducing performances of all the children its fine. Erm other than that I enjoyed Parental Guidance.
Double Take.
When was Parental Guidance. Thinks.
Checking!
Whoah 2007. Okay.......That was back when I still had time to watch these shows regularly. It was really good I guess... Singapore Tv series rarely reach that type of standard. It only lasted for 26 episodes. Grrr.
And even then it was comedy. Not that Im complaining but anyone know any good local show that isnt comedy. Before The Pupil there werent any. Yeah The Pupil was kinda okay, though they still had actors with spastic english on the set. Nope. Fighting Spiders and Red Thread was kinda fail. I think Polo Boys was epic fail.
Did you know theres PCK the movie coming out?
*shudders* let the poor thing die already. I thought PCK sdn bhd was bad enough. A full length movie. 0.0
I wouldnt want to catch it.
The noose is hilarious though
I think we all would like to be on the noose.
Hello, my name is B.B See
XD

Wheee

=/
I think this is hilarious
http://www.barnorama.com/make-me-a-poster-of-my-missing-cat
Its a little long but totally worth your time.

I wish I could just relax more, I wish people could just relax more. Haha. People dont relax enough. I wish we could have the chance to.

Fear my obssesion and laugh at the stuff it has uncovered



I never knew my our head boy was so creative
And so flirty. This is funny. If you know Nicole then good for you. Its okay I dont know most of the people mentioned anyway. I still find it very funny.

Erh yeah. Nicole apparently is in our year, in RGS you might know her.
Haha

Come to think of it, its a little scary.
Nvm
That
was
completely
random

Sometimes I wonder what my role is in this world
Not now though.
Im just trying to figure out what exactly my role in dramafeste is.

You see I signed up as an actor. Yes just another actor for the annual inter-house drama competitions. Then well being part of the school's drama club I had to attend a preliminary meeting which only one other person from my house attended. Then, since we had no script, I helped to brainstorm ideas for it,
Thats when the trouble started
I eventually ended up editing it as well. Then I was also called upon to discuss the script in general with the others. Then though not respected by those horrible horrible arrogant DI people, at least I had the listening ear of the director and house capt. The unofficial one. Because he couldn't officially direct since he had to act as well. Unofficial director needless to say was another one of those demotivated people who ended up in the House Exco.
Also being the "Raffles Players Guy" I had the most experience in theatre and was called upon time to time for my vast theatrical knowledge that they had no use for other than when they were feeling guilty. Like warm-ups. They asked me to lead them in warm ups but then when I tried to they just screwed around and kept wasting time. Needless to say I ended up PMSing at them but not many of them cared.
Today screwed things started happening, many screwed things. Yes the rehearsal went quite okay during the three hour slot that we took during school hours, and my chinese lesson. But then after school the chaos began.
Rehearsal venue screwed: We had to change it, someone didnt book it properly, we didnt have a space, so I had to use influence to get the ES for them. If one of the people from the other houses are reading this, you arent supposed to know. Sssshhhhhhhhhh. Upon arrival, we... No THEY started slacking. Aside from those who skipped and left. We had beloved Aidan playing PES on dear Director's laptop. Director and Stage manager throwing ping pong balls around. And unofficial Director lying on the sofa like a bag of morasses. Almighty Scriptwriter was not there. All we had left was me Ben Wong and Jian Kai, working with Ben Wong's lines. Thats only cause he needed help and I was the only one who could help him. Jian Kai is part of our backstage crew but yeahhhhhh he was kinda a bigger help than most of the rest. Together we actually managed to make Benjamin experience the feeling of anger and transformed his delivery of his lines from hopelessly fail to awesome stuff. Needless to say unofficial director decided to pop by from across the room at the end and go "yeah we are awesome". To which I pointed out he didnt do anything.
Ben Wong left as well as Jian Kai because they had better things to do. So I pmsed at the three people who were supposed to be running the production to go rehearse their roles. And I pmsed until they did, dammit I wasnt going to let them slack away, not in the sacred hallowed grounds of the drama club cca room. Urgh.

Just so you know
Director: Oversees the entire production, has the "vision" of where the play is going, should know how things are supposed to be staged and has the final say on any decision.
Scriptwriter: Being the scriptwriter he knows what the lines mean, so any interpretations that need to be done, about lines and meaning of the play etc should go to him. He also naturally points out things that he finds to be gross distortiions of his original intent.
Stage Manager: In charge of props costumes lighting and is basically the scribe as well. Awesome job.

Yeah, scriptwriter absent. SM and Director having juggling competition with ping pong balls. Unofficial Director stoning. Other Actors: Not there, Playing Com, listening to music or playing with the ping pong balls too. I have no idea what the ping pong balls were even there for -.-
So in the above situation, naturally I had to do something. And I finally achieved my goal of progress through massive massive pms in bursts and intervals.
Today was love

I actually made it through the week. Whee. I don't know how much more of this I can take, school to me just feels like a bag of sponges that I'm carrying.
And its starting to rain......

He watched her, in the library. She was sitting on a sofa, not far away. Looking down at the book in her hands, reading, as normal people did at the library. He on the other hand was just watching her, and enjoying it probably as much as she was enjoying that psychological thriller. He just couldn't stop gazing at her, and just as he was about to successfully tear his gaze away, she moved.
A strand of hair fell over her face and she swiped it away. He couldn't help but think how cute that action was. She flipped the page, ah that was love. Suddenly she looked up, right into his eyes and they both stared for a moment, held captive by each other's gazes.........


This is getting too indulgent, I shall stop here.

I dont really know whats going to be in her new album. Except for this track. This would be a live recording, its the only version of the song for now. Not bad by my standards. Endure the screaming fans.
To all of you who say she doesnt sing well live. Fine. She cant hit the notes on You belong with me. Even more so if shes jumping around and playing the guitar and changing costumes mid-performance. But yeah she cant hit the notes for that one. But she can still put up pretty credible live performances. Her vocal performance is pretty solid here, especially if you consider the fact that shes probably jumping around for the performance of this upbeat song, either that or strumming away on her diamond guitar. (:
I hope the damned album gets to Singapore before the end of the year.

Hey Avril, where's your freaking album. Black Star was supposed to come out in January no? Then it got changed to June. Last time I checked ITS FREAKING JULY. Apparently Taylor Swift has replaced Avril Lavigne as top pop/rock female artist according to some of those music awards. -.- I think some of her songs are pop/rock but to call her a pop/rock artist in general is a little too weird. Oh yeah World music awards 2010 is freaking weird too. I think most of them are crocked.
Pop/rock artist nominees(note artist not female artist):
1. Lady Gaga
2. Madonna
3. Rihanna
4. Taylor Swift

Honestly I would classify none of these as pop/rock or anything remotely resembling it. Other than Taylor Swift occasionally=> Forever and always. Wth. Wheres BoyslikeGirls. All American Rejects. Madness. Oh yeah guess who won
GAGA. Who in the world gives them authority to give out awards with brains like these. Fine maybe even if she is a giant pop influence but pop/rock? which cave were you hiding in when that term was defined. Does the word rock even remotely mean anything to yah? HUH?
Oh yeah this one's funny too Best rock band: U2
WTH. That was sooooo last century XD.
Though they arent the only people to classify Taylor Swift as a pop/rock artist. The others include er. American Music Awards. Yeah only these two. Damn funny.

We dont have lives anymore. I dont see the point.

We study so we can get good jobs.
We work for our money, so we can buy lovely stuff, oh and lovely stuff for our currently as of yet hypothetical kids.
Whats the point if you dont get to enjoy the lovely stuff
Other than in your old age when you're too busy with hip replacements to enjoy your lovely stuff.

Hey I dont know about you but don't you think we should have lives before we have a chance of losing it through heart problems
grrrr.........

HEY TO YOU MORRISON PEOPLE READING THIS. I AM SO NOT GOING FOR DRAMAFESTE REHEARSALS ON SATURDAY IF YOU DECIDE TO HAVE THEM. YEAH MANNNNNNNN. ITS NOT LIKE YOU GUYS AINT A BUNCH OF DEMENTED ASSES. YOU LAUGH AT WALKING OF THE SPACE? AND DARREN FOO HAD THE NERVE TO TRY AND RIDICULE ME IN CLASS FOR IT. EVEN AFTER JLEE TOLD HIM HE WAS RETARDED, HE JUST CONTINUED AFTER THAT. I WAS FREE TODAY AND WEDNESDAY, YOU GUYS DIDNT INSIST ON PEOPLE SKIPPING THEIR RA AND CCAS DONT EXPECT ME TO SKIP CG. GO AWAY. oh and technical rehearsals are on monday. Tomorrow is going to be love.

For some reason I have become extremely cyber-stalkable, typing my name and blogspot into google brings up this blog 0.0 that didnt use to happen before. I guess I shall live with a more public profile.

Hanzo: What are you complaining about, despo boy? You crave attention.

Go away. You never have anything good to say.

Hanzo: Such accusations, cmon you know you like this, and you know this is what passes for my good mood. Be thankful for it yer twat.

Fine. whatever

Hanzo: Alright. Lets bring the house down then, RAWRRR!!!!!

whutz?

Hanzo: And so my friends, welcome to the show.

Taylor Swifts album. Coming out in October. Itll probably reach us next year -.-
Still. ITS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you ever feel like breaking down.
Do you ever feel outta place.
Like somehow you just dont belong.
And no one understands you. - Welcome to my life, Simple Plan

why is iT tHat almost evERyone can relatE to thiS song. it sHOuldn't be that way. it sUcks when you think about it, that everyone feeLs lonely and like they DoN'T fit in. i don't know, mayBE itS just that i knOw too Many of those people who didn't or never fit in bUt I have yet to find someone who dislikes this song. tell me who if you find someone. i'll be damned if he/she aint the happiest person in the world or someone who has his/her head stuck in freaking Classical music.

i guess it means tHat life sucks for almost everyone, and we probably always need someone to talk to. we all feel the HUrt. the iRony of this is thaT even though we all go through this crap we almost always feel were going through this alone and that no one could eveR possibly understand.

so now you know. i hope that cheered you up in a weird way.







In case you're straining your eyes to see my hidden message its simple:
There shouldn't be so much hurt

91 words

Typing Speed Test

I think this is extremely inaccurate. But its a definite ego booster

If I could have a superpower it would be teleportation. Meanwhile I would like to talk about my second choice super-power. Making people spontaneously combust. I think its hilarious and most people agree with me. Ever wished your teacher would stop ranting in class and just shut up? Well I wouldnt be able to do that, just make her shriek really loudly for around 30 seconds. Oh yeah she wont say anything after that.
Heres my burn list:
1. All the teachers who have pissed me off in the past. I count 6 teachers. No 7. No 6
7.Lady Gaga
8.Miley Cyrus
9.Megan Fox
10.Justin Bieber
11. Creator of FB
12. Creator of Twitter
13. Steve Jobs
14. Creator of pedobear and lolcats
15. Pedobear
16. Fourchan
17. All those people who have pissed me off sufficiently in school I count, 0 wow. dont worry this list is flexible and can be edited anytime.
18. Osama bin Laden
19. People who flame Taylor Swift on the internet
20. Joe Jonas, cause he broke up with her
21. All her future bfs whose name does not begin with an IAN and end with my surname.
21. Just kidding. Robert Pattinson, for bringing us on screen twilight
22. Stephanie Meyers for bringing us twilight
23. The director of twilight.
24. The moron who picked Miley Cyrus to be a star
25. Hodgson, for fucking selling fucking Insua to freaking Fiorentina
26. (Petr Cech, Essien, Wayne Rooney, Ferdinand, Fabregas, Van Persie) count these as one for my amusement
27. The idiot who is backing Man city with ridiculous sums of money
28. Cr7
29. I cant believe I missed him. Adam Young
30. That guy who manhandled me when I cut his queue for the bus just cause I wasn't an old lady.
31. Singtel Ceo

People I nearly burned but couldnt bring myself to:
1. Lily Allen (shes just funny)
2. Katy Perry
3. Creator of the Fairly odd Parents ( I enjoy seeing others squirm more)
4. Creator of So much Pun
5. People who broke Taylor Swift's heart( She got over them, so thats fine) but JOE JONAS IS UNFORGIVABLE.
6. Angst Girl.I thought about it. but the angstiest 5 year old in the world is so not worth burning.
7. Ming Jie. (I think I would regret it later)
8. Shrey ( I only hate him half the time)
9. Our year head. Her speeches about snails are so endearing
10. Mich- I kid you not, i was considering it.
11. Archimedes. Hes already dead. otherwise I would burn him.
12. Deepak, but then who would I get to whack in class for being gay to me.
13. The creators of The Fly 2, one of the worst horror films I have ever seen. but, it was so bad it was funny.
14.Fluff- I hope you read this. I flipped a coin btw. It could have gone either way.
15. Creator of Dora the explora!- Okay, I confess "Swiper No Swiping!!" is very very fun to say

Hello I hope you like the new skin. Since I am Ian, the skin I adore most naturally turns out to be glitchy. At least it isnt as glitchy as the last one. I hope you all can see the entire main body of text unlike me without having to scroll all the way down to the bottom and scrolling to the right. Sorry about the sidebar, I think its ridiculously tiny as well. Ill try to change that as soon as possible. The mixpod is gone, it would have looked even worse with the sidebar. Believe me. I tried!
Yes Ming Jie, you can stop bitching about my skin now

I eat alfafas?

I am going to be soooooooo busy with dramafeste. Thank God the rehearsal worked out fine in the end. horrors. You might want to come see it if you wish. Its next friday and saturday at the RI lt i think. Should start at 7.30 both days. AND OUR FIRST REHEARSAL WAS TODAY. YAY FOR US. Haha I'm not playing a major role, then again our script has one major character one minor characer and a whole bunch of calefare. I play the minor role lolz. I refused to take the major role. I cant memorise lines that quickly. :P

Even if you dont want to watch us, there are the other 4 houses, who prepared much longer than us. Buckley, one week ahead(this you should realise is still twice the prep time), Hullett, two weeks ahead, Bayley a month ahead, Moor probably started around the same time as us, last year.
Sing the song of MoRRiSoN!!!!!

My chinese teacher just put me in a project room today cause I was sneezing too much. Everyone laughed, but at least I know they were laughing at him. Though he didnt quite get it and scolded them XD. Unfortunately I didnt quite skip chinese lesson, since all we did that lesson was a compre. -.-

God knows what assembly tomorrow will be about, I wasnt listening to the corny 'whats on this week'. It had better not be about the history of colour, I was NOT kidding about that one.

I dont need hugs, not if you're a guy >.< .

bold the truths.

I am a morning person.
I am a perfectionist.(yes, but its heavily suppressed)
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to MySpace.
I'm shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I currently regret something I have done.
When I get mad I curse.
I don't like anyone. (not now)
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I have a car.
I have a cell phone.
I have a pet.
I have at least one brother or sister.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I'm smart.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humour. (not a good thing)
I have had a broken bone.
I have caller ID on my phone. (who doesnt anymore)
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me. (they called me) see a few posts down
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldnt.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I have watched Sex and the City.
I like Shakespeare.
I love to cook.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I miss someone right now.
I own over 100 CDs.
I own over 100 DVDs.
I own and use a library card.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I think Britney Spears is pretty. ( I think Bieber is prettier)
I will try ALMOST anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I lost contact with someone.
I hate Miley Cyrus.
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
Id date Harry Potter.
I can name all the past presidents of the United States.
I know who was president before George Bush.
I love pickles.
I need the internet to live. (Didnt always use to)
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I watched Star Trek.
I watched all six movies of Star Wars.
I own an Xbox. (Yes an Xbox, not a 360)
I think music is life ( I THINK MUSIC IS MY SOUL)

I. Music (BOLD THE ONES YOU LIKE)
Acceptance. Coldplay. Dave Matthews Band. David Bowie. Foo Fighters.Hellogoodbye. The Killers. James Blunt. Teddy Geiger. Linkin Park. Muse. Ok Go. Panic At The Disco. Peter Bjorn. The Postal Service. Timbaland. Jack Johnson. Norah Jones. Drake. The Fray. The Wreckers. Michael Buble.Beyonce. Metallica. Massive Attack. Queen. Journey. The Cars. Supertramp. Eurythmics. Sublime. The Red Hot Chili Peppers. Wu-tang Clan. Fergie. Sarah McLachlan. Band of Horses. John Mayer. Jason Mraz. Justin Timberlake. Michael Jackson. Kenny Chesney. Carrie Underwood. Lynyrd Skynyrd. Neil Young. The Beatles. Brad Paisley. Tim McGraw. Taylor Swift. P. Diddy. Jay Z. Lil Wayne. Lil Jon. Three 6 Mafia. Nelly. Young Joc. T.I. Sean Paul. 50 Cent. Eminem. Eiffel 65. Ace of Base. The Underdog Project. Dream Theater. Santana. Alicia Keys. Incubus. Victor Wooten. Ludacris. Gorillaz.Matchbox 20. Paramore. Say Anything. Taking Back Sunday. Eric Clapton. The Darkness. Weezer. The Eagles. Jimi Hendrix. Maroon 5. Billy Joel. Reel Big Fish. Anberlin. Mae. Family Force 5. AC/DC. Hootie and the Blowfish. Electric Six. Outkast. R.E.M. The White Stripes. Prince. Mika. Crystal Castles. Britney Spears. Spice Girls. The Gossip. Lady GaGa. Nirvana. Smashing Pumpkins. Third Eye Blind. Metro Station. Motion City Soundtrack. The Rocket Summer. Tenacious D. Something Corporate. The Moldy Peaches. Macy Gray. Mandy Moore. Plain White Tee's. Yeah Yeah Yeahs. My Chemical Romance. Fall Out Boy. We the Kings. The Rolling Stones. Angels & Airwaves. The Beastie Boys. Black Eyed Peas. Boys Like Girls. Jonas Brothers. Demi Lovato. Selena Gomez. The Cure. Cobra Starship. Death Cab for Cutie. Deftones. Team Sleep. Filter.Goo Goo Dolls. Honor Society. Katy Perry. Kid Cudi.

I see no relient k. Or Avril Lavigne. Or that ashley guy. hmm. Yes I said guy. Not tisdale. I also see no Faber Drive.

II. Movies (BOLD THE ONES YOU'VE SEEN)
Pride and Prejudice. Glory Road. The Princess Bride. Goonies. Center Stage. Ocean's Eleven. Seven. Newsies. 300. Robin Hood Men In Tights. Love Actually. Garden State. Donnie Darko. Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind. My Best Friend's Wedding. Anchorman. Drop Dead Gorgeous. Wedding Crashers. Elf. Zoolander. Austin Powers. Clueless. Mean Girls. Hairspray. Moulin Rouge. Fight Club. Rocky. Pulp Fiction. What A Girl Wants. Kill Bill. Thank You For Smoking. Little Miss Sunshine. Requiem for a Dream. The Departed. Dawn of the Dead. Memento. The Lovely Bones. 17 Again. 8 Mile. Office Space. Snakes on a Plane. Boondock Saints. Say Anything. The Silence of the Lambs. Saving Private Ryan. Superbad. The Prestige. Just Friends. The Devil Wears Prada. Under the Tuscan Sun. Titanic. Steel Magnolias. Saw. Ace Ventura. She's the Man. Because I Said So. Catch and Release. Music and Lyrics. Spanglish. Stick It. Step Up. The Fast and the Furious. Joyride. Halloween. The Italian Job. Crash. Must Love Dogs. The Last Kiss. Chicago. Harry Potter. Rush Hour. Breakfast at Tiffany's. Clerks. Shooter. The Bourne Identity. Meet the Parents. Dirty Dancing. A Christmas Story. Rudy. National Treasure. Sleepless in Seattle. Miss Congeniality.The Science of Sleep. The Matrix. Everything is Illuminated. Good Will Hunting. Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure. Empire Records. Phantom of the Opera. Lord of the Rings. Click. Scarface. District 9.

Star Wars, Zombieland and Kick-ass are missing. Then again this was quite old.

III. TV (BOLD THE ONES YOU'VE WATCHED MORE THAN A COUPLE OF TIMES)
ER. Grey's Anatomy. Saved by the Bell. Man vs. Wild. Scrubs. South Park.America's Next Top Model. Gossip Girl. Sex and the City. Friends.Dawson's Creek. The Big Bang Theory. Seinfeld. The Office (:. Lost. Miami Ink. Made. Arrested Development. That 70's Show. Family Guy. The Simpsons. Veronica Mars. Project Runway.Bones. Iron Chef. Alias. Pushing Daisies. Gilmore Girls. The Colbert Report. The Daily Show. Mythbusters.Avatar: The Last Airbender (. Will and Grace. 24. House. To Catch A Predator. Whistler. Heroes. Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Unsolved Mysteries. 7th Heaven. Everybody Loves Raymond. Boston Legal. Bleach. What I Like About You. Reba. King of Queens. Survivor. The O.C. Australian Idol. Days of Our Lives. How I Met Your Mother. CSI. Boy Meets World. Law and Order. Numbers. Reno 911. I Love New York. Step by Step. Little People Big World. What Not To Wear. My Wife and Kids. Moonlight. Supernatural. Ace of Cakes. White Collar. Nip/Tuck. The Biggest Loser. Beauty and the Geek.Battlestar Galactica. Stargate SG1. The Inferno. Scarred. Wild N Out. Real World. Whose Line is it Anyway?. Trinity Blood. Dead Like Me. Dragon Ball Z. Futurama. Firefly. Medium. Star Trek. X-files. Cowboy BeBop. Sailor Moon. My Name is Earl. Six Feet Under. Dancing With The Stars. Degrassi. Greek. Glee. Secret Life of the American Teenager. The Hills. Laguna
Beach.
CSI MIAMI!!!!

I dont what's going to drive me crazy first, the incessant bell ringing from somewhere in this demented neighbourhood or the unmutable voice in my head screaming YOU VE GOT HOMEWORK THAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING.
Sigh. No one appreciates me. I know this is indulgent but what the hell are blogs for anyway. I dont want to go to school tomorrow. I hate how you dont talk to me. I hate the way I want you. But you dont want me back. I hate the way you ignore me like that. And I hate the way I somehow dont quite hate you for doing so. because I kinda know how you feel. And I think I've finally moved on. Hopefully to find someone better. Not that Im saying anything. Hopefully to find someone who will hate the way they like me too.

I was awakened at 5 am this morning. To the sound of massive thunder and rain.
Perfect start to my day.
I tossed and turned until around 5.50. I was about to finally get back to sleep when suddenly my mother turned on the lights and told me to wake up. Yesterday she had said that if i didnt set my alarm, she would wake me up at 6 to do my tuition homework. I had.
It was set for seven. So there I was, tired lying on my bed and tossing and turning since the rain got worse. It was seven before i knew it, and i still had not slept.
My alarm rang. I set it to snooze 9mins. It hasnt always been 9mins. It used to be 3 but i changed it to 9. I cant remember how to change it back. 7.07 Phone starts to ring. Its the traffic police whee!
TP: Is this Mr Yong Fah Kiem( yes that is my mothers name)
I: Um, no my mother isnt in.
TP: Does she own the car *fuzz* A BMW?
I: Erm my father would be driving that car, though its under my mothers name.
TP: Yeah the car is in the middle of the road and it needs to be moved
I: Huh?
TP: Yes can you come and get it?
I: Im fifteen
TP: Er...can you get your mother
I: She isnt in, tell you what I give you her number
TP: Ok.

I go back to bed and guess what the phone rings before i can even shut my eyes
TP: Hello?
I: yes?
TP: I cant get your mother's number she is overseas.
I: Um she would be in Malaysia then
TP: Then what about your father, do you know his number.
I: He should be at work, in malaysia.
TP: He cannot be in Malaysia because his car is still here
I: -.- um can you call my mother...
TP: we cannot contact her, she is overseas
I: she can only be in Malaysia.
TP: this is a very serious situation, contact her A-S-A-P or I shall have to disturb you again.
I: Ok..........(WTF)
TP: tell her to call me back at THIS no ********

Did i mention my mom bought one of those new *intelligent* cordless phones, so i was fumbling with the phone all this while. I moved to my mom's room where the only "dumb" phone in the house still existed and tried to remember how to dial malaysian numbers. OMG its not like Singaporean policemen faced with "urgent and serious" situations cant dial numbers in malaysia right?? No...Instead you give the job to a sleepy absentminded pissed of teenager. I try to dial both my mother and fathers number. I kinda panic for 20 mins. I dont get any reply. No ringing tone, instead some weird musical tone that makes me want to puke. Then while i am trying every possible combo of digits in front of their phone numbers, 65-01-02- etc etc etc. My dad calls back. Wonderful.
I: Um papa. The traffic police called, they said your car was in the middle of the road
D: Yeah my car got stalled because it was flooding.

WTF THE TRAFFIC POLICE DEFINITELY KNEW IT WAS FLOODING. Something that I, barely awake could hardly have known. Yet. WTF

D: could you call your mother to handle it.

My mother called me just at that moment, on my hp.
I gave her the traffic police guy's number.
I would have gone back to sleep except for the fact that tuition was in a realy really short while and i had to do my tuition homework.

I cant believe that
1. The traffic police couldnt contact a Singaporean in Malaysia.
2. They dont have hp nos of the registerd drivers, only home no
3. They had to call the home of a registered driver and make threatening statements about serious situations to a teenager over a car that he claimed was "parked in the middle of the road" despite the fact that they knew that it had just flooded in that area earlier on. SELF INFER. YEAH YOU CAN CALL ME BUT DONT FREAKING THREATEN ME A SERIOUS SITUATION AND MAKE IT SOUND AS IF MY FATHER JUST PARKED HIS CAR AROUND AND RAN SOMEWHERE ELSE WHEN ITS KINDA OBVIOUS THAT IT GOT FREAKING STALLED. Oh yeah, he asked me to come drive it away. WTH if i could drive, I would like what? take public transport there to find a stalled car. I WOULD HAVE SCREAMED ALL THEIR FUCKING HEADS OFF IF THAT HAPPENED ESP SINCE THEY KNEW IT WAS PROBABLY STALLED
So began my day

Epic Burn

Sorry this is still a rant like the post earlier. This will probably be more specific and have less vulgarities.
I hate it when people just assume they are the best actors out there just because they are get into Destination Imagination team. Who gives a crap. Honestly you get chosen more for your randomness than your acting skills and your willingness to slack off in a glass room for 4-6 hours a day then go home and chiong homework. Even worse are those who try and step all over me with their arrogance.
Im not boasting but I can act 2 times better than any of those in the DI team. Doesn't stop them from trying to trample all over me. The acclaimed name of Raffles Players apparently doesnt mean anything to them.
Worse. Their Teacher in charge apparently seems to support that view
Before the rehearsal started. Their teacher walked in and told us to change our script in this way and that. Proceeded to walk to the DI people and go. "Wow you guys dont need to worry about your actors, got quite a few tried and tested ones". Motioning to the DI people. "The rest.........." She just let trail.
freak.
Screw her.

Labels: rant

If you get offended by bad language. Please dont read this post.
Its my life however. Yes it is THAT traumatic
Back......from school. Dramafeste rehearsals went up to 7. But then being unofficial
fourth in command I stayed back and talked to Our House Teacher I/C with the other 3 for another half an hour.
"With no power comes no responsibility"- Kickass the movie(Kickass)
This unfortunately so doesnt work in real life.
I hate certain people.
I hate it more when those certain people invade one of the few places that I usually manage to relax. In other words, a whole bunch of DI people and Nat Mah turned up for dramafeste. A lot of them gatecrashed and didnt come for the auditions. Being DI, it was naturally assumed that they had calibre. Well i guess Darren Foo and Ze Kai can be really nice to me when talking to me one on one. But then when the whole bunch of them are together with the rest they just piss me off. They just continue to treat me that way cause the others are around. Hell Df and Bzk treat me badly in each other's presences as well, cause they don't know that they individually feel bad about pissing me off all the time.
I am so creating a hate list.
Aidan Mock. Die. Nathaniel Mah. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
Those two. Urgh. I didnt go for the last rehearsal and apparently they were trying to help out with the scriptwriting. They didnt do much, but they advocated the idea that i should play an angsty teen because I seemed angsty.
FUCK OF COURSE I WILL SEEM ANGSTY IF YOU MAKE ME ANGSTY.
Life sucks, and now most of the DI people are probably wondering why I am so angsty during the Dramafeste rehearsals.
GET THIS: I get angsty with YOU around, and forgive me for not showing it most of the time in class. AND FUCK YOU IF YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE TO MAKE ME ANGSTY DURING REHEARSALS WITH YOUR SHITFUCKING ANNOYING PRESENCE. AND FREAKING FORGIVE ME FOR SHOWING EXACTLY HOW PISSED OFF I AM BY YOUR PRESENCE.

Sorry if you had to read that.
I just have no respect for people who dont respect me as a person.
And yes you two, you are by far the worst offenders.
Even JT backs off outside sports and debates. Most of the time.
F**K

ROFL

Now, Ian Can't Explain Oranges. Now, Everyone Thinks Hot= Xabi

I really wouldnt have gotten that
If you dont. Its normal

For those of you watching. You have just been witness to an extreme case of insecurity.
Whee for me.

Never After Doom. Ian And Paul Love Shoe Laces. Everyday Time Makes Everyone Run. Elephants Ate Dustmites, Yum. Overly Understood Rabbits Bought Large Online Gerbils. -.-
That was not supposed to make sense.

Staring at a wall that wasnt there before.
-.-
A friend of mine has had a private blog for years. She claims only 8 people read it. Or less.
Strangely enough, I noticed at least 10 people linking to her blog. I asked about them. Apparently none of them do so.
What is the point of posting links to blogs you dont have access to. Lolz. It implies you are allowed to read it. I guess its one of those self-image boosting things.
Like friends lists.
XD
I hate it when people stonewall me. Everyone seems to do it. I know people dao people regularly on msn but it happens to me in real life as well.
I can be jumping around right below their noses and waving and shouting their name but nope. Ian doesnt exist for as long as they choose.
Facing walls everywhere. Its no wonder I put up some of my own.
We all do don't we.
I still hate getting stonewalled. Even though some people might say that I'm "used to it"

Note: Nearly all my works of prose here. In fact all so far except 1 are works of dramatized non-fiction. >.<
"cause I gotta get outta here.." Yes, he was listening to relient k. One of his few escapes in life. From.......His father who was sitting next to him in the car.
What do you want to do in life?
Shit. He cursed silently. Not that damned question again. That question always comes with thinly veiled expectations. He grudgingly extricated one of his earphones from his ear and tore his attentions away from the drumbeats that resonated in his soul.
Do you think you could settle overseas?
Where would I. He answered.
Australia? Canada? Uk
Yeah, then I'd be come an "asian dude"
Well. The life is better there. Its not easy living in the island city. You gotta work hard to make a decent living.
Yeah yeah he thought to himself. No thanks but I prefer a society where you don't get discriminated upon. Its my home, I ain't no leaving here. He managed to think the last sentence without a trace of irony.
Do you think you would like to work in finance? I think you would be suited for it.....
Get real. I hate math. Period. I can't have my life centred around business and markets. I need something more alive. I would be suited? No you just hope I would go there. He broke out of his musings, noticing that the droning had stopped. He reattuned himself to relient k, only to find the connection that he had with the song was lost. He sighed and press the restart button. And heard again the guitar intro of Be my escape.

"cause Ive been housing all this doubt. And insecurity..."
What do you think about economics? You know it does pay quite well.....
Again. No escape. He jerked back into his physical state. More expectations. Expectations that he didnt want. Couldn't fufil. Not at the expense of his own happiness. He had chosen his own over theirs quite a while ago. They still hadn't realized it though. Who were they kidding. They didnt know what he wanted. And they probably wouldnt care. Mmmmm he replied. The standard reply of the uncommitted.

Satisfied with the silence he heard. He continued listening to the music that had never stopped in his left ear. And mentally screamed as he had lost the connection. The song was replayed from the beginning. The two note intro echoing in his head once more. And his heart.

"Ive been locked inside that house. All the while you hold the key..."
Ever thought about getting into one of the top universities out there?
Thats all it ever came down to. Results results and more results. To what end he thought, pulling himself away from the beatings of his heart. When they asked what he wanted. They were asking how he wanted to please them. He didn't. They kept asking him to listen. But they never listened.

SMU would be quite okay? I'm quite sure you could get in easily and be the top student there if you wanted to.
He couldnt understand how his father could be so right. But so unwilling to see. Really there was nothing else. He didnt want to. Silence prevailed over the monotonous dronings. Those expectations. He didnt bother listening. He hit the restart button immediately.

"And even though, there’s no way in knowing"

Why dont you work harder. I'm sure you're smart enough to be the top student.
He just didnt get it. There was more to life than that. He wanted to do what he wanted to do. Not something smart people do or they wanted him to do. The expectations didnt help. He wanted to just tell them.
But he couldnt. They wouldnt understand. He had heard the way they talked about "those people" before.
No their minds wouldnt be able to accept it. But music......
The life of a musician would be a hard one. No harder than the life they were wanting him to have. but it was in his soul. He felt the call.
And He silently begged for them to understand him........to be his escape.
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.

You might want to skip this post if you dont have a lot of time. Its utterly pointless and not very funny.

Heard of the myers-briggs personality test? I took one and it told me I was an ENTP.
Ive taken a few more. Quite a few of those tests say im ENTP most say I am INFP.
This probably has something to do with my split personality. My two sides.Those letters are probably not going to mean anything to you unless you take the test and actually care. -.-
nvm.
Quick description
Entp: Extroverted Intuitive Thinking Perceptive
ENTPs will talk a lot. Try and be funny. And argue for the fun of it.They enjoy playing devils advocate. Often offend people without knowing it. Might be oblivious to emotion and overly logical.
That insensitive ever optimistic smartass.
2 famous ENTPs: Thomas Edison, Weird Al Yankovick
Infp: Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceptive
INFPs are idealists. Constantly fighting against perceived injustice and to make the world a better place. Place high values on their gut instinct and feelings which causes them to be irrational at times. Eternal perfectionists.
That quiet irrational guy who might not make sense with self esteem issues.
2 famous INFPS: Mother Theresa Taylor Swift
I get the feeling that Im both. At different times.

If you actually want a detailed look go to www.personalitypage.com
Not that you would care. But go look at your own personality type lolz.


INFP
creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, prone to quitting, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, low self confidence, emotionally moody, can feel defective, prone to lateness, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, prone to sadness, prone to dreaming about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, can act without thinking, private, can feel uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, more likely to support marijuana legalization, can sabotage self, likes the rain, sometimes can't control fearful thoughts, prone to crying, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, can be submissive, prone to feeling discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not always prepared, can feel victimized, prone to confusion, prone to irresponsibility, can be pessimistic

or

ENTP
risk taker, easy going, outgoing, social, open, rule breaker, thrill seeker, life of the party, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, appreciates strangeness, disorganized, adventurous, talented at presentation, aggressive, attention seeking, experience junky, insensitive, adaptable, not easily offended, messy, carefree, dangerous, fearless, careless, emotionally stable, spontaneous, improviser, always joking, player, wild and crazy, dominant, acts without thinking, not into organized religion, pro-weed legalization
-.-

One of those random qns around
Spell your name without vowels. Zzt.
N Th Sn Kng
Nth
not cool

People call him the best Goalkeeper in the world
St. Iker Casillas
XD

Hey there. I'm just stoning around now waiting for the world cup. I am contemplating on why I am stoning, and not actually talking to anyone. I can always use someone to talk to...
I hate this world. I hate the way people hate each other. I hate the killing. I hate the sarcastic insults. I hate the way people are left out. Left to rot. I hate the way we hate each other because people are different. Ever met one of those "different" people. Those who never fit in. Ever not talk to one of them. Ever called them names. Ever turn away when they turned to you, for anything. They see. They see everything. They may be different. But they see. They see the look in your eyes when they talk to you. They see your disgust and disdain. They see your contempt, for who they are as a person. It just takes one to plant that seed of doubt. Then all of a sudden, there are two. Then five. Ten. Faces. Taunting, mocking faces. They lose all sense of self. Hope.
They know and feel that they are unwanted. So what if you didn't really do that. So what.SO WHAT. If you've seen it happen,and let it happen. You caused it too. For all it takes. Is that ray of light. To chase away all the shadows. But, it never comes. They falter, stumble in the realization, that not one person is willing to shine that light for them. To guide them out of the darkness.
Many fall. Some never get up. Most cry out. To their parents, to God. To anyone. To come save them. Most hear nothing. But deafening silence. But it doesnt last.
It never does.
They start to hear. Voices, from the deep, depths of the earth. From the wretched parts of the soul. They bat away those voices. For they call, for their minds, their hearts, their lives.
But not all do.
For the rest. They endure the voices. The faces. The suffocating darkness. And slowly waste away. Everyday the pull gets stronger, the voices grow louder. The walk in the dark stretches longer and longer. There is no end point. Society inflicts this horror among its own people. Can you truly say you arent guilty as well. I felt the darkness. I stood at the brink of sanity. And nearly, nearly let myself fall.
The light never came for me. But yet I was lucky. For I stumbled upon a mirror. That let me see the light within me. That was good enough as I made my way out of the dark. Yet. Upon leaving it. I never looked back for the others I knew there. I kept my own light from them. Him.
I swear I'll never do that again. Will you?

I still face the dark today. But its different now. I've seen this place in the light before. The shadows no longer have a sway on me. As the light within myself quashes those fears.
It only takes one.


Mich, you said you felt bad for not doing anything to help me back then. Don't. Cause you did. More than anyone else.

Labels: nightmares, Others

I need someone to teach me how to play the guitar properly. Cause you aint a rock star if you can only play the piano. No matter how well. YEAH MANN
I asked my friend in school who is like super pro in it and he went like dude go learn it yourself. The internet is there for a reason. -.-
I cant do that. As musically talented as other people say I am. I need someone to teach me. Mind you it took me slightly less than 11 years for me to get where I am. In terms of piano playing. Compare this to others who take like 6 years to get to grade 8. Nvm. Zenas offered to teach me at the beginning of june. But i think he forgot about it. Grr. I DONT GET BAR CHORDS. I DONT GET BAR CHORDS. THEY HURT MY FINGERZ. Well i think only on my guitar. For some reason the strings on my guitar at home are really hard to press. I can play other peoples guitars with no pain at all.
Its so frustrating for me if i cant play it on the guitar. I listen to my own playing which is noob in comparison to my piano playing and i get depressed. I feel handicapped without the ability to play any melody i hear in almost any key i want.
I MUST LEARN THE GUITAR TO THAT LEVEL, THEN I SHALL BE ABLE TO BUY AND ELECTRIC GUITAR AND PLAY GUITAR SOLOS UNTIL MY EARS HURT, NOT MY FREAKING FINGERS.
I mean. Yer can't drag a piano around wherever you want right? And you cant exactly sing along to one while you are playing it, without immense effort and practice, and either your voice will sound weak, or your playing will become insipid. Unless of course you are like some American Idol contestant or John Legend. Or even David Archuleta. He played A thousand miles and sang it to a crowd once.
There are certain songs that will just never sound good on piano. And there are others that will not sound good on piano without the piano generating intensely loud sounds that neighbours will complain about. ie rock songs.
Gr......I realize that Im never satisfied about anything in my life. Maybe thats cause my parents aint no satisfied with anything in mah life either.

Yesh thats my image. If its not very good. Well thats Ian computer art for ya.
A spurt of randomness made me come to cg today in a black shirt with a bright pink design on it. It also made me extremely high and not wear my glasses.
Squinting at bus numbers a while later made me realize that glasses are there for a reason, even if your power is like 100.
Then again, this spurt of highness made me dare to walk down the street in a that thing. Maybe its a good thing. Someone stared at me. I stared at him until he looked away. I think I know how people get away with embarrassing stuff now. Its like:
Person A(on the bus really loudly, off key): WHY CANT YOU SEE.............
Person I: can you erm, like please stop sin-
Person A: YOU BELONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Person I: You are disturbing others....
Person A: YOU BELONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEE
Person I(losing it): AND YOU'RE OFF KEY
Person A glares....
Person I: What!!!
Person A GLARES
Person I: Okay okay I'm sorree.....
Person A GLARES MURDEROUSLY
Person I gets off the bus at the next stop as fast as he can.

Well it didnt really happen, but i can envision it happening.

Ever seen those random motivational phrases to make you happy
like er. Dont care what others think
Give everyone a big smile today!
My favourite is Sing Like Nobody's Around.
I wish I was obnoxious enough to do it.
Okay I did it once.
But I was squirming inside all the way.
And I stopped after a 100 metres when people started giving me queer looks.
Thats worse than if they confront you themselves in case you havent realized.

Quiz: A truly Random Quiz created by Yours Truly:
You may treat each line like a yes or no question, or just randomly comment on it:
1.Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
Lolz I never feel like an ancient black rapper
2.Grab my glasses, I'm out the door, I'm gonna hit this city
Ke$ha has glasses? lolz. Erm. Nope?
3.Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
I brush my teeth.With Toothpaste. Not whisky. Sensodyne For Sensitive Teeth!!!
4.Cause when I leave for the night, I ain't coming back
-.- Sorry, I sleep.
5. I'm talking pedicure on our toes, toes
Our? I thought only the Queen refers to herself in plural. Even then its only "we"
6.Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Yes, I do try out clothes before going out.
7. Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Cool problem. BOOMZ. And Phones? phoneS?
8. Drop-topping, playing our favorite CDs
I do not have a convertible. And i only have 1 CD.
9. Pulling up to the parties, Trying to get a little bit tipsy
I dont know, but if i went to a party, I would try NOT to get tipsy, In my opinion one only tries to get tipsy if you are trying to emo and forget your troubles.
10.Don't stop, make it pop
Bubbles come to mind
11.DJ, blow my speakers up
Is this supposed to be a good thing
12.Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Staying awake throughout the night is always a battle.Like all battles, it is nevera pretty sight.
13.Tick tock on the clock, But the party don't stop, no
I dont know, but usually if you here the clock ticking at a party, something is very very wrong
14.Aint got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
This solitary line conjures up images of hobos and shopping carts
15. Aint got no money in my pocket, but Im already here
LEECHER FREELOADER IMMA NOT GONNA LEND YOU MONEHH
16.Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
Lolz again with the royal "we"
17.But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger
Maybe he did look good once. But I'd rather be kicked by Ke$sha
18.Im talking about - everybody getting crunk, crunk
LETS ALL GOE HIEEEEEEEEE
19.Boys trying to touch my junk, junk
There are only 2 places in the world where this could happen. 1. a gay bar 2. My school. The premier educational institute of Singapore.
20.Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Not a problem for me, thank God.
21.Now, now - we goin til they kick us out, out
Being Kicked out. Yes. I hate that.
22.Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us -
XD
23.No, the party dont start until I walk in
RAWRRRR

1. Last beverage: Cheap 80cents milo from sch drink store
2. Last phone call: Jeremy Teoh. Yep No one has called me from yesterday until now
3. Last text message: No one has Smsed me either. Its still Ming Jie
4. Last song you listened to: Tattoo Jordin Sparks
5. Last time you cried:-.-

HAVE YOU EVER:
7. Been cheated on: Nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: -.- no
9. Lost someone special: You usually have to get something first to lose it.
10. Been depressed: hello? do you usually talk to cartoon characters.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Threw up yes, drunk no. LOVE DRUNK!!!!!!!
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Black
13. RED
14. Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: Yes.
16. Fallen out of love: Trying to?
17. Laughed until you cried: No
18. Met someone who changed you: Met many people who changed me?
19. Found out who your true friends were: No, in fact i started doubting.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes, it was bad
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: KISSED ANYONE??
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: I have no facebook, I have no friends list HAH
23. How many kids do you want to have: -.- I dont care, its up to her whoever she will be.
24. Do you have any pets: A dog, though my brother will point out, it isnt mine.
25. Do you want to change your name: I'm past that stage now. Then again, i could get a middle name. I think all of you know.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I went to pizza hut and waited for a pizza for 3 hours
27. What time did you wake up today: 540
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Blogsurfing, and trying to make sense of my fearless CD.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: My rocket to come.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: She flew off to Canada last thursday. Coming home tomorrow
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My proximity to Taylor Swift
32. What are you listening to right now: My brothers, who are playing Halo 2 in the living room
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Never, Tommy? yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Dont, get me started.
35. Most visited webpage: GOOGLE
36. What's your real name: Ian
37. Nicknames: Ive had a lot of fail ones. I cant remember all of them though i shall list out the more amusing ones: Karmaman, It, Tit, Tan, The pimple. Most of them didnt make sense. Especially the first and last one
38. Relationship Status: Unwillingly single
39. Zodiac sign: Taurus, though I dont believe in horoscopes. Waste of time. I read my horoscope today, it appealed to me, so did the horoscopes for leo gemini and pisces and cancer.....
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Elementary?: Yes Watson
42. Middle School?: RI
43. High school/college?: RI
44. Hair colour: Its a shocking pink, and its natural
46. Height: 163
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: I shall not answer this.
48: What do you like about yourself?: My lovely face.
49. Piercings: None, though i mutilate myself in my sleep with my long nails
50. Tattoos: No, though i have a craving for one now
51. Righty or lefty: Leftie. We rule
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: ---------------
53. First piercing: ---------------
54. First best friend: hmm. Would A p1 best friend really be a best friend especially since we mostly lacked emotional depth at the time. Then, if not we should be going back to nursery for our first best friends.
55. First sport you joined: Badminton, I havent improved since p3 other than strengh-wise
56. First vacation: Singapore- I used to live in Malaysia. Haha

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: THE SIGHT OF YOU -.-
60. Drinking: Saliva
61. I'm about to: Finish this blog post
62. Listening to: see question 32.
63. Waiting on: the world to change

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: I dont really care.
65. Get Married?: Desperately.
66. Career?: Confession: Singer, Actor. Bf of a certain famous person. Shut up its a career.
WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms......wtf stomach?
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble-maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: You kissed a stranger? Tell me who
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
79. Sex on first date: *scans horizon for first date*
80. Broke someone's heart: zzzzzttt
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: No
84. Cried when someone died: No
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yep
90. Santa Claus: HE EXISTS HE FREAKING EXISTS
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes
92. Angels: Yes..They brought me here......yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: I sing everyday.
96. Ever cheated on somebody: No
97. If you could go back in time: And stay 15 i would go back in time 6 years. And live in America. And go to high school somewhere in Nashville. Then I would tell her about her future. She would think Im crazy but then my predictions will start coming true.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Man..those days werent exactly milestones in my life.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Afraid? Only of falling in love with certain people.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: -.- Im a guy, deal with it

Random quiz. I leeched this from an archive from nadias blog.People say you get the from facebook. I'm sorry i dont have facebook. So I shall leech it from blogs of people i know. If not. I shall leech it from random blogs online.




01. Who was your last text from?

Jeremy Teoh. -.- Dramafeste nooooo.

02. Where was your default picture taken?
Default picture? default Picture? My Msn dp is not taken. well it is. Taylor Swift took it somewhere in America

03. Your relationship status?

I wish i had one.

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?

define lose? Lost contact? I guess so.

05. What is your current mood?

Emo, your fault you just had to ask qn 3.

06. How many siblings do you have?

2

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?

Calvin, Jason

08. Where do you wish you were right now?

In her arms. sigh....

10. Ever had a near death experience?

No?

11. Something you do a lot?

Cyber stalk people? Listen To Music. Thinking of her. ( not taylor moron, im not THAT obsessed)

12. Angry at anyone?

Too many.

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?

Her. That is major in case you're wondering

14. When was the last time you cried?

I'm a guy. We cry so little that we forget when we last did. Last time i felt like crying but didnt? Oh wait. everyday.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Maybe 2.

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?

I hope i dont get a screwed dream today. Or i want to dream about this so *Think Think Think Think Think*. Or I dont want tomorrow to come.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

Lim Ming Jie

18. What is your favorite song?

Mine changes every few days. I think its shifting to Fifteen now. Was next plane home a few days ago.

19. What are you doing right now?

Blogging. DUH

20. Who do you trust right now?

The sad thing is. I could write out those people on this list. but i shant. People will get inflated egos. And i dont trust anyone not to.

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

Lolz i dont get my clothes. My mom buys like 20 and i pick 1 that i like.

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?

Wanted to.

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?

I think its Caleb Loo. If not Nadia lolz .

24. Describe your life in one word?

Phrase: Outside looking in.

25. Who are you thinking of right now?

Her.

26. What should you be doing right now?

homework.

27. What are you listening to?

The sound of my keys. Fearless(album) a moment ago.

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?

Images of people recoiling in horror when i try to give them hugs come to mind.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?

Those incidents are like static to me. If I took note of them, I would hear little else. But: Jonathan Tan, for wanting to play relient k over the class speaker instead of crappy rap music.He should rename himself Hugh Jasho

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?

I try to be sweeter. I get mushier. I find it harder to breathe. I stutter more. I act stupider,cause its hard to think with her on my mind.

31. What is your natural hair color?

welcome to singapore. We have black hair here.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Gosh i cant remember. But its not that sad. Twas something someone said in school today.

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?

Her.

34. What do you hear?

Hanzo telling me that my mushiness is going to get me into trouble.

35. Is your hair curly or straight?

Straight.

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?

I wish....

37. Do you have a best friend?

A lot of good friends i guess? But best friend. I dont know. I dont think so. Which is probably why Ive been blogging obsessively instead of talking to him/her

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?

Are you trying to depress me.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?

Yes.

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

Yes. years ago. I was a kid then

41. Are you happy with life right now?

Not Happy. Not too pissed about it either.

42. Are you currently jealous?

I dont feel like going mushy on this question. Just take it that i do. Use your imagination.

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?

I will wear jewelry the day i read twilight. And dye my hair blonde with a pink streak in it like Avril Lavigne

44. What were you doing on friday night?

Blog Surfing.I think....

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?

Its still broken.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?

That alone is beyond my dreams

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Yes. People let me down all the time. Forgiveness is hard to get from me. I forget easily though XD

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?

My father is a doctor. I saw him cause he came home from work

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?

I was up to 12.40 doing things like this

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

I can only wish.

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Suddenly felt inspired and began to write two songs during physics today. People have said that emotional troubles inspire them to write songs. I think I'm becoming one of those people. Thats good.
My cousin also told me that out of every 200 songs written by songwriters 1 gets released. Well....thats 199 more to go then.

1. Fearless- worst title track ever. Boring.....vereh. boring. She said that Fearless sums up the attitude in the album, but i would have changed the title of this song then....Heck why did this song get released as a single. Oh and it hit no1. in Singapore. People are so weird. Then again im not too sure how you calculate the no1. in Sg thingy anyway.
2. Fifteen - I revised my opinion of this song. Its beautiful in a way.
3. Love story- gets a little draggy after a while. Take a break from listening to it. And its Awesome again.
4. Hey Stephen- Slightly boring?? The vocals didnt do much for me either. Overrated. I guess its sweet but didnt do anything for me.
5. White Horse- You just feel sorry for her here. Haha did you know its about the same guy in Love story? That must have totally sucked
6. You Belong With Me- Vocals.....slightly painful. But great song, a lot of fun. (: This is totally NOT country though. Taylor shouldnt call herself a country singer. Esp since she only writes country half the time.
7. Breathe- Quite a let down for me. Esp since Colbie Caillat supposedly helped on this one. Yeah boring........
8. Tell Me Why- This track blew me away. Taylor is a rock star, one of the songs that have a greater country slant. Then again its still country rock.
9. You're Not Sorry- More intense, Great vocal performance in this one, I personally prefer this sad song over white horse no matter what those damned music critics say
10. The way I loved you- I LOVE THIS SONG :DDDDDDDDDDD. Personal connection
11. Forever & Always- Taylor Swift should start a pop rock band, instrumentals on this one are especially great, unlike a lot of her songs. haha, seriously they can get quite stupid at times=> shouldve said no. She made me hate Joe Jonas.
12. The best day- Erm it was okay? but Colbie Caillat is less boring. I think its the worst track on this album.
13. Change- Great song but someone else shouldve sung it.
14. Our Song- I cant believe i missed this one. Esp since it is supposedly one of her more famous ones. More country i think? Works for me. Yep one of the better tracks on this track. I think its a re-release from her first album.
15. Teardrops on My guitar( Pop-version)- I prefer the original, this one is more rocky with a crappy drum track added. I suppose you listen to this is you can't appreciate mushy stuff and think that everything should be set to an electric guitar and noisy drumbeats. It sounds hideous in the beginning but sorta works out in the middle and end.
16. Should've Said No- Very VERY chessy guitar intro, but THE HARMONY IN THE SECOND VERSE IS SO ADDICTIVE>.........wahhhhhhh. Haha this song is very weird but somehow works out. Its a re-release from her first album. Though i wouldve preferred it if she re-released picture to burn

I was kinda depressed by the story of the great gatsby. I heard a summary of it in school. Gatsby is in love with this random girl. He goes off to fight in world war 1 and comes back to find the girl already married to another guy. He becomes rich and "successful" he throws many parties but is never really happy because he never gives up on that girl. He lends the girl his car one day for whatever reason. And she knocks down a random woman on the street and kills her. Gatsby doesnt tell anyone, and neither does the girl. The husband of the dead woman tracks Gatsby down, and kills him, and himself in vengance.
And nobody goes to Gatsby's funeral, except maybe his father and a few random family members. No one from his random parties. No friends. Not even the girl. Who he could have been said to have died for.
This totally depresses me.
Partly because i could see the same thing happening to me.
Not really the no one coming to my funeral part though. Im quite sure some of you would.
I didnt need to hear that story. Not now.
I think i need therapy
Did i mention that being a psychological therapist(if thats whatever you call it) is one of the most awesome jobs in the world. People pay you and you insult them for it. You get to say stuff like YOU HAVE A NEGATIVE PERSONALITY, YOU WORRY TOO MUCH.
I think I would pay for someone to do that to me now.
Let me know if you're interested

Labels: Love, my weird opinion, myself

Its hard to make conversation when you're taking my breath away...

I just bought fearless (: Her music is so uplifting. I wanted to buy the platinum version but i saw the price and I thought I'd rather save the money for her concert. I dont think Ive found any bad tracks so far and there are definitely some other songs in it that definitely deserve to be released as singles. I was about to do a emo post. but... Hahaha dont feel emo anymore.

It rains in your bedroom.......

He caught her eye as she stepped on the bus. Her hair, slick from the rain. She smiled as she caught his own, and just for a brief moment, their eyes met. She wasn't conventionally pretty but it was a little unsettling to him. Maybe.....just maybe, in another lifetime they might have been together, he thought as she made her way past him.....

Esp since she was old enough to be her mother, had more fingers than teeth and was also Indian. I'm sorry, Im racist that way.

Hey. Lets say, A guy likes a girl. The girls doesnt like him. Oh yeah and the girl found out. Though he didnt tell her. But he knows she found out. Throughout an extended period of time, the guy and girl are forced together because of circumstance, and friends. The girl resents that. And thus tries to avoid him to try to blow him off. The guy and girl go their separate ways, and the girl doesnt stop trying to avoid him. So they practically dont talk. Oh yeah but the guy still likes the girl after 3 years. And bought her a birthday present recently which was the most ex thing which he got for anyone. And she still tries to avoid him. Probably even more so. The guy knows this. But still likes the girl. Probably even more so.
Is this love?

I nearly bought a copy of fearless today
My taylor swift mania is being revived again for no apparent reason. Its this blog.....it encourages indulgence. It was that dream, then i had to blog about that dream. Gr...
Btw i made up my mind to buy a copy of fearless. Its just a matter of when.
Its also a matter of how to buy a copy of fearless in popular without a whole bunch of schoolgirls staring at you.
Buying fearless would totally be a girl thing to do.
Then again so is listening to Taylor Swift
And Vanessa Carlton.
And HSM
And reading twilight

Haha gotcha there, i dont do the last two
That would be too girlish.
But im thinking of catching eclipse.
I mean seriously soppy love scenes aside, there is apparently a vampire+werewolf vs zombie battle scene in it? Correct me if im wrong. I mean who doesnt like watching vampires and werewolves rip up zombies.
Suddenly my insecurities seem to have vanished.
You arent exactly very girly if you relish the thought of anything ripping up zombies. Or zombies ripping up anything.
But still. Its hard to be manly and buy fearless at the same time.
Even if there's no one around, theres always the counter girl.
Freak.

Is Jump Then Fall soppy?
I dont think so
at least I dont think its too soppy.
Someone called it soppy
and that someone was a girl.
That would make me soppier than her if she was right
I hope to hell im right.

I could, not buy fearless, but then ill just wait for her third album to come up.
That still doesnt solve the problem.
Damn how do other people go around it

Hanzo: Maybe there arent any 'other people'
Maybe you're the only one

Damn you, im already insecure enough dont do this.
Besides you are me, and its not like you arent insecure yourself.

Hanzo: At least i dont doubt my own masculinity

So what, you worry too much about people liking you or not all the time.
Youre just as insecure as i am my friend.

Hanzo: So do you, I'm just not so apathetic

You are a mean twit who cant express himself and thus reverts to being a quite failed cynic and spouts the insults of the low self-esteemed.

Hanzo: You my friend are an idealistic moronic irrational optimist who suffers from a protracted form of ADHD. You are extensively girlish in many different ways though you try to deny it. You are incredibly soppy and make stupid attempts to attract other people's attention. You decided to do this post under the guise of someone struggling with how other people view him and guess what? You do but you my friend are sneaky. after all if you are so damned afraid of people knowing you like taylor swift and want to buy one of her albums, why the hell are you blogging about it.

I hate how you know me.

Hanzo: I hate how you know me too, luckily for me you arent nearly eloquent enough to do anything about it.

You're mean

Hanzo: finally daring to make that irrational argument public eh?

Fine then Mr, What would YOU DO THEN, dont pretend you dont like her music as well

Hanzo: I would buy the freaking album and I mean that. JUST BUY THE FREAKING ALBUM

...........

Hanzo: AND STOP FANGIRLING IN PUBLIC I MEAN WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR RANDOM OBSESSIONS. Bloody insecure exhibitionist.

You arent some socially adept person either, stop making me the not normal one. You, try to be cool all the time and fail massively

Hanzo: YOU try to be not cool and different so that when you are unique, people will think you are cool in your daringness to be different. Hypocrite.

Thats screwed up logic

Hanzo: whatever you know its true, you cant argue with yourself. Esp since we never lose an argument.

dont speak for the both of us

Hanzo: youre changing the topic

..........

Hanzo: I suggest you end this screwed up post now, or risk more humiliation

Fine..

Hanzo: forget the freaking dots, it makes people think you actually have something else on your mind

I spent most of the evening trying to find new blogs to read , been checking out profiles of people from my past. And yes i still care enough to read about you. If you care enough to read my blog, ill probably care enough to read yours. (: start a freaking blog people, too many have been going dead. It is my firm belief that blogs do have a certain essence and quality that facebook can never have. Its not just the whole skin, the fact that blogs, no matter the fact that they are public, are still your space. Facebook posts, although lighter and easier to write, tend to be insipid in my opinion. Like twitter without the 140 character limit and bad interface.
A twitter post would go:
lulz had cle lesson 2day, the new tchr damn weird
the fb post would prob be:
Lolz, I had some random new cle teacher, he had a funny hairdo and was funny, check it out! (1000ppl like this)
Blog post(what i would write in this random hypothetical situation):
I got this random teacher for cle(character leadrship ed for those who dont know). I think he was trying to be funny, fortunately he succeeded. ((((::: That quirky hair worked too, he cant be much older than us, and yes he is yet another ex-RI dude. Makes you wonder, how come so many of ex Ri boys end up as low-paid teachers at their alma-mater. OMG i just envisioned my self teaching CLE to my cousin. Er... whatever. What bothers me most about this damned teacher, was not the fact that he blared loud music in class while trying to get us to play a demented game, but the fact that he couldnt name a single Taylor Swift song, NOT A SINGLE ONE I mean it was. WTF WTF WTF.
Our sch has a piano in the main atrium, where anyone can go and play it. I do btw and I force all those who are not enlightened to listen to the best songs in the world. Nah not really, i dont usually spam Taylor Swift songs on it. Usually only drop in 1 or 2 in. Although i remember one day I played Love Story, Youre not Sorry, Forever & Always and Jump Then Fall, it was fun, and no one really bothers at least i thought. Until some guys passed and asked a friend of mine who was standing next to me who was the guy who kept playing Taylor Swift songs. Oops. Apparently more people have noticed. Get this, to my brother's classmates, ive become the guy who likes Taylor Swift. FML.
Hahas. Anyways I was randoming around the main atrium, no in fact having a cca meeting. And waddya know, cle teacher is trying to play the piano, manages to play half of Gaga's telephone decently( the melody only). I being the occasionally egoistic maniac go down to suan him. and i played love story and he was like what song is that. -.- -.-.-.-.-.-.- I dont think im having too adverse a reaction, I mean Love story was so damn popular it became a freaking cliche and this guy doesnt know it though he somehow can name almost all of Gaga's songs which disproves his defence that he doesnt listen to music?
Then again if he only listens to Lady Gaga, he doesnt.