Sigh...I've been spending too much time doing nothing recently.
When I should be studying.
Suddenly the inspiration stops.
And all thats left.
Is the music all who know how to hear take solace in.

I play. Unconstrained by any score, the music shaped only by the melody I have in my head. Forever flowing, changing, subject to my mood, never exactly the same twice.
Free.

And maybe that is the way it should be.

Cause how else, can the music truly be yours, truly sincere, a true expression of who you are, and what you feel. And is it not only then that it can be called music? When it is something that you truly feel inside? An expression of your being?

And yes...maybe the scores should merely be training steps for everyone, like how they were for me. Not the shackles that pianists everywhere struggle to fill. I don't care that playing pop music is really, easier than magnificent concertos or epic chopin pieces.

Its really how I feel, what relates to me. And which is why I guess, when I play people listen. Not many, but definitely more than you would get if you were slamming fantasie impromptu into the keys like a maestro.
Its the genuinity or genuineness or whatever.

Its not about how hard it is to play.
Never should it be.

Its the soul in the music.
Its what makes great music great. Whether Carpenters, Anne Murray, Sinatra, Bon Jovi, U2, John Mayer, Colbie Caillat, The Script,Jason Mraz.
Its doesn't have to be emotional or serious too.
Katy Perry is another example of that. She's flighty, but she means it too, and that makes her music great. (though not if you can't relate to erm everything she's talking about)
Of course TS as well.

To all you people fighting out there over skill of pieces, about playing the hardest piece. It doesn't mean nothing if you don't mean the feelings in the piece. And if you can't feel the emotion then screw the piece. If you can't play the piece, screw it too. They're just training wheels.

Its just like any other aspect of life.
Just follow your heart.