A dear friend of mine once said this:
My life. It just feels very pointless now. I feel that...I've lost the passion for learning. I've lost any semblance of passion for my CCA. I don't feel motivated to work anymore, damn it. I know I should be studying really hard, but I just can't. It's like...I don't want to work anymore. I don't want to study anymore. I don't want to do anything at all. And the alarming thing is, this holiday mentality has carried over into the school term. And it's causing me a lot of grief. My marks are going downhill. Damn, I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who actually understands how I feel. Someone who's there to whoop my ass when it needs whooping. Someone to bitch at. All of a sudden, I feel so alone. All of a sudden, I remember this line from a song. "No, you'll never be alone, when darkness comes I'll light the night with stars." I know God loves me. I know I'm not alone. But all I'm craving for is a little human touch.
I wonder, one and a half years on I feel the same way.
But I don't want to go back.
This life feels fuller without the crap and bullshit of secondary school.
Nah, I haven't lost my passion for CCA, you guys can relax.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to sober up.
If I ever want to.
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Snapshot of the past. - Saturday, February 5, 2011 @ 10:04 PM
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Snapshot of the past. - Saturday, February 5, 2011 @ 10:04 PM
A dear friend of mine once said this:
My life. It just feels very pointless now. I feel that...I've lost the passion for learning. I've lost any semblance of passion for my CCA. I don't feel motivated to work anymore, damn it. I know I should be studying really hard, but I just can't. It's like...I don't want to work anymore. I don't want to study anymore. I don't want to do anything at all. And the alarming thing is, this holiday mentality has carried over into the school term. And it's causing me a lot of grief. My marks are going downhill. Damn, I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who actually understands how I feel. Someone who's there to whoop my ass when it needs whooping. Someone to bitch at. All of a sudden, I feel so alone. All of a sudden, I remember this line from a song. "No, you'll never be alone, when darkness comes I'll light the night with stars." I know God loves me. I know I'm not alone. But all I'm craving for is a little human touch. I wonder, one and a half years on I feel the same way. But I don't want to go back. This life feels fuller without the crap and bullshit of secondary school. Nah, I haven't lost my passion for CCA, you guys can relax. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to sober up. If I ever want to. |
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