My light nose affliction has escalated into full nasal blowout.

I am currently sneezing once every 10 seconds or so.

I normally cure this by taking medicine, chucking a few pills.

The unfortunate problem is that I already have. Any more and it'll be overdose .

Sighs.

Looks like I'm going to be getting a headache tomorrow.

These type of things seem to only occur during the holidays.

Brrr....

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Yes lah I am needy.

I am a very needy person.

I hate it when I am ignored.

I hate wondering if I am actually being ignored or not.

I hate being left out, or feeling like I'm being left out.

of fun or of serious stuff. And if that happens, I'll freak out and become emotionally turbulent. Not that I am not already emotionally turbulent, but it will show more.

I like talking to people, and I always don't know how to shut up. Really I'll keep talking to you for much longer than you care to, on a topic that interests me and I won't realize it. I may get offended if you tell me to stop. Its terrible really.

If you're my friend, I'll bring trouble along with me. I'm always hated by people, and I expect my friends to help me with them. I expect my friends to share my troubles with me, and to face them. And to listen to all my problems and share the burden.

I don't know. I'll be oversensitive and latch on to hidden intent with vehemence and yet, I feel a compelling urge to find out and know everything and this makes me insensitive with the way I pursue things.

I'm overbearing and bothersome. I say the most outrageous of things at times. I'm afraid of being stepped on, and because of that, I loathe backing down even on the most ridiculous of things. I can be egotistical and selfish.

Really my selfishness knows no bounds. And thats disgusting. I don't know. I try to win everything, because I cannot stand losing. I hate this competitive streak within myself. Its instilled within me, the false desire to be the very best, to compete, and to win everything. To be ruthless. Its a characteristic that should only be bred for survival.

Sometimes I can't tell who cares more about me than the rest. It can lead to under-appreciation of certain people and over-appreciation of others. Its horrible my lack of understanding of people.

I wish I could change all of those things, and I sure am trying. Its the type of things that I might cause me to hate someone exactly like me. But I'm sure I would understand.

At the same time I'm not so sure.