Why, after those 3 years we spent together, you all have slipped out of my life.

Just slipped out.

And you're gone.

Do you guys still remember me?

Of course you do, but when was the last time I appeared in your head.

Never?

Its okay, there have been times when you all have been far from my mind.

I still walk a rather lonely path you know.

And right now, even though you all are just a mouseclick away.

I can't click .

I can't walk up and say hi.

You're there, all of you.

But you aren't there anymore are you?

Perhaps next year will bring a new start.

And I hope that when we meet again, we'll find that four years hasn't changed the things we remember. And that perhaps some of us could be the same again.

Lets try to take it back before we all went wrong.

Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world.

This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst.

My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me.

And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre.

I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn.

*hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.