Sometimes I wonder what I would do if not for music to purge my soul.
Sometimes I just need
I just need an assurance that my existence means something, not means something, like a meaning to life.
Like a meaning to someone. Like making a difference in their lives.
Because of who I am.
I feel like I need an assurance that my life is worth living.
Cause I don't know.
She said something today. Something about what it would take to make him see.
If anything would make an impact in his life.
If anything could be done to change him.
My first thought was, fine.
Take me away. If he changes then it will be worth it.
But I realized thats bullshit. I didn't want it to happen cause it would possibly improve the lives of other people, that it would change him.
I wanted to hurt him.
I wanted to hurt him so bad.
I don't know why I'm like that.
It scares me like hell.
Die for something more worth it my friend. Hold on.