I feel like I could collapse any moment.

But this heart of mine is whole and fine.

I am

Content.

Days like these should last.

Forever (:

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I'm sorry I haven't told you much about my life lately my friend. I've been giving you pictures and vague glimpses of various things.

So maybe it's time I wrote a little more.

But where can I start?

For one I've been uselessly adrift, things are starting to go wrong in my life and once again, it seems like it's the absence of God.

yet on another level, things are fine. My class doesn't hate me and I'm actually getting along with almost everyone, I'm making new friends and things are mostly swimmingly with the ones I already do.

mostly.

On the other hand, my creative juicies have stalled, and are still stalling, on every front. I've not written a story since the 7th day, (plenty of half stories and one nonsense narration though) not a song since christmas, and even then, that was only half a song. My blogging style has changed for the worse too, and I don't know why I can't trust you with as much as before.

I've also stopped my obsessive labelling.

I'm not quite the same person I was six, five or even three months ago.

It's been too fast.

and I don't know how much more it's going to be.

Don't let me forget who I am.

Don't let me lose what matters most.

What does matter most?

I don't know.