I don't feel anything anymore. At least not today.
There's no sadness or anger or longing.
Now it's just a strange sense of emptiness and numbness.
Not good anyway.
My undercurrent of anger is at it's peak. Meaning I'll burst out lashing at anything or anyone. I hate people standing me up.
I hate that without you, there isn't anyone I can trust.
And it felt like that when you were here. And now that you're not here, it doesn't feel any different.
No one has time of day for me. You don't anyway.
Maybe I am worthless.
My wallet is light, my coin pouch is empty. Some things in life do change.
It's empty except for the stupid memento I keep with me. Not that I've seen it in awhile.
I need a new place to belong.
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Forgetting You - Tuesday, June 12, 2012 @ 5:55 PM
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Forgetting You - Tuesday, June 12, 2012 @ 5:55 PM
I don't feel anything anymore. At least not today.
There's no sadness or anger or longing. Now it's just a strange sense of emptiness and numbness. Not good anyway. My undercurrent of anger is at it's peak. Meaning I'll burst out lashing at anything or anyone. I hate people standing me up. I hate that without you, there isn't anyone I can trust. And it felt like that when you were here. And now that you're not here, it doesn't feel any different. No one has time of day for me. You don't anyway. Maybe I am worthless. My wallet is light, my coin pouch is empty. Some things in life do change. It's empty except for the stupid memento I keep with me. Not that I've seen it in awhile. I need a new place to belong. |
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 Just another starstruck (see above for evidence*) wanderer trying to find his way in this horribly confusing and sometimes messed up world. This space as you might have realised is for my own venting. It's where I talk, to myself. To the universe. It's where I don't lie. Much. Chances are you won't get more truth out of me than these few billion pages of angst. My life isn't that bad. Sometimes. The good parts just usually end up being the blank dates in between the posts you see. So yes, just to practice my math and to cheer myself up a little, the number of posts is inversely proportional to my mental wellbeing. Yes that counts as math with me. And despite the wry smile on my face and the grin I can imagine on yours, I'm still rather sombre. I promise you I'm sunny somedays. Stick around. You never know what you may learn. *hint may or may not be in big black font at the top of the page.
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