Hello...?
Most flattered.
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I don't understand the world sometimes and what it throws my way.
I don't know what's been going on this year. It's been so strange.
And nothing's going to be the same again. Not ever.
I don't understand people better, experiences have been less real.
I'm still looking for some authenticity, and not finding it. And I'm becoming less.
I'm experiencing less, being less. Less of what I want to be, what I want myself to be, less sure of where I am and where I'm going.
And it's become less important. And other things were more important but now there just isn't anything less and I find myself equally uninmportant.
I want to try, but I've got nothing to try for.
Maybe I need to learn the importance of waiting.
Yes I do. The importance of inaction as a choice. The choice of doing nothing, to actively participate in passivity.
As much as I want to throw myself into the current and just flow along, I don't want to "hibernate" and awake months later, unchanged.
Exactly where I am, exactly where I don't want to be.
Then things won't get better.
You see here I am again, telling myself I need to do this, I need to do that.
Maybe for once I need to do nothing. Which is different from sitting around and trying to relax, or pass the time. I need to still my soul again, and maybe listen to it. Longer than usual. Who knows what I'll find.
...I also need someone to parachute into my life.
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set the songbird free
for your gilded cage won't do
for free flight and song
So fly along.
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