It's one of the longest days I've seemed to have that did not involve a night without sleep.
Day meaning extended stream of consciousness.
Just trying to sit here and think about all the things that happened today is making my head hurt .
1. Did that girl mean what I thought she did when she said, "wah how come Ian so nice today" I mean, I don't know her that well, is that really what she thinks of me? And why?
2. Words shouldn't affect me so much. (YEAH I REALISE THIS POST FALLS BELOW MY STANDARDS, ): Sorry) Compliments shouldn't send me sky high. Bad.
After all, its just breeds false confidence that isn't even self-assuring. Which means the moment someone calls you out on it, unless you have beloved active supporters on hand, you're going to crumble, whether or not the accusations are true.
Useless.
3. I've come to a point where I realise I'm screwed. Yeah, I mean I'm not smart enough to figure it out by myself, but a combination of my futility being compounded and emphasised on as well as the fact that there isn't very much in it if my head is so easily turned then.
Shit.
You're better off without her.
Forget your nonsense. People make mistakes.
GET OVER IT.
You actually won't know for sure until tomorrow kiddo, and you're just turning from a treacherous path to a dangerous one.
4. AS YOU CAN SEE, TODAY HAS BEEN A HORRIBLE DAY.
A bad day for the status quo to say the least, yes I count um.
1. 2. 3. 4. major relationship changes.
Okay,
3.
One for the worse, one for the better, and one I honestly don't know.
Let's hope something works out.
