In my defense I would like to say that this after all is my blog. Where I think about things.
The primary aim of this (or at least I'd like to think, and aside from writing things to amuse myself) would be self-reflection. And when I'm struggling to come to terms the exact nature of my existence, then it should be natural that I contemplate well, my uh, nature.
Though if this place is a recording of my thoughts, well then it is truly disturbing that I have myself in my thoughts all of the time.
Well, lets just say thats not the case, its just that gushing about other people in public is not cool.
I tend to write out long angsty letters about people only when well, they make me angsty.
When they don't make me angsty I tend to get all smiley, (or try to, it usually ends up with a crooked, freaky grin) and my exuberance (or over-exuberance) shows (no, seriously, my creepy smile means I like you, and as in I APPRECIATE YOU. I'm just trying to show it without saying it cause that's extremely sappy and I might break down in tears or something but I fail. OKAY I FAIL I'M SORRY, I LIKE YOU VERY MUCH HAPPY NOW?)
In other words, me being self-absorbed on my blog is generally a good thing.
Well maybe I'm just deluded.
Yeah, I did used to post about people and how wonderful they made me feel. Then I realised that some of them might end up reading this blog and getting well, as they remind me all the time, creeped out by my inherent and obvious creepiness. (Something that I happen to DISAGREE with but hey, who cares about my opinion, after all THEY KNOW ME BEST) (YES I KNOW MY REASONING IS FLAWED AND I'M USING MY BRACKETS WRONG)
(Yes, the first bracket should be replaced with a semi colon and a fullstop. At least thats what I think)
If you still don't believe me and choose to believe in my selfish, self-focused pig-headedness then I'm terribly sorry. I would like to say screw you but that would just prove you right. At least in your head. Well all I can say in is that if I was that self-absorbed I wouldn't be writing stupid disclaimers like these into my blogposts. (which are clearly designed to entertain btw, if you had such a high opinion of me to think that I'm naturally this funny, sorry to ruin your hopes love, I'm not that attractive) If you say I'm just trying to attract attention and lure more people into my cult of Ian well.
I have nothing to say to that. I'll take a leaf out of my dearest friend's book.
I won't smile, but I might nod slightly. Ambivalently.
Ok. You win.
